...when you hear the word afterthought what comes to your mind? Possibly, something you just recalled? Something of less importance than your original thought? Does this term leave a negative ring in your head or a positive one?
....well. I was an afterthought when planning something I really want to be part of. I categorically would not teach at certain gyms because they choose less experienced teachers than me...why? Because they, in my opinion need their classes covered and ALWAYS ask Willis before me. This process is upsetting. I am a good instructor, a great one, I think and I am open to improvement. However, simply because you want your instructors to look a certain way is EXACTLY the reason why they don't hire me...or maybe there is a reason...can you readers who have taken my class offer me feedback? Getting back to an afterthought; me as an afterthought. Someone offered Willis an opportunity in Zumba and said I can participate if I want to maybe they meant because I don't participate on stage with other instructors....maybe there are other reasons...but the word was Willis' afterthought...if I was not an afterthought he wouldn't have used that word. I know this is a powerful entry but it is my intuition telling me this and interesting enough when Willis told me he had this opportunity I felt not included...then my intuition was confirmed when he said "....they said you could be involved if you wanted to..." His explanation is if I wanted to meaning my choice. Nope. If you wanted someone included, even on the playground at 4 years of age you would pick them for your team...especially if you knew you wanted to see what they could add. I suppose we will see. I would like to be part of this even even if its passing out water....and that may be all I can do.
An Afterthought? Second best? Or at least you were thought of.
ReplyDeleteWillis used the wording " I wasn't going to tell you (because he knew I really wasn't first choice) and HE used the word afterthought. I will participate in any capacity just using a "safe sounding board" to unwind the clip..."you are not good enough" that constantly plays in my head. I am good enough...better. Others consider me an afterthought...how might one approach this?
ReplyDeleteSometimes afterthoughts are good. Like having a good idea, thinking about it, then adding to it.
ReplyDeleteHowever... in this case, i can feel the hurt feelings. Acknowledge them, say what you need.
Maybe, is it possible, to be grateful to be a thought? How many like us are not considered at all?
Unwinding the clip, recycling it to make something better. I vote for that.
You are my only thought. I have never considered a Zumba class with anyone else... soooo... there must be more like me!!
Love you! You are good enough and so am I!
Isn't that the theme, the tape " I am not good enough..." that is no one fault I can not imagine...thanks and see you tomorrow?
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